FoundAlongRoad

I haven’t heard from her in a few days
I haven’t reached out
Finally feel kinda empty
It’s only been one since I saw your face
Trying not to reach out
Tonight I feel kinda empty
Alone in this place I knew I’d get in touch with myself
Alone in my brain I gotta get a grip on me now
And how the thought of you tempts me
My middle name should be ‘excessive’
Can never stop from going too far
Don’t know how much I should give
When I wanna know everything you are
So I’m sitting and thinking and breathing
Turning my mind to other things
And I’m chilling and sleeping and writing
But here we are again
It’s ok I’ll be alright
Learning what breathing room means
Cuz I hold on too tight
Till we’re bursting at the seams
When I love I love too hard
When I need space I go too far
Too emotional they say
I wouldn’t wanna feel any other way
Cuz every breath
Is a new experience
And every moment
Shaped by how I own it
Even when I’m coming at you like a little kid
Too shy to say much
Just wanna be in your presence
It’ll pass before I know it
Time changes everything
I’ve gone through all the phases
And they’re each my favorite
I can’t choose
Even the dark times
I love a good muse
And I love you
But it’s ok, it’s settled into me now
After the thrashing the water calms down
And I can see just enough hope
To make memories I’ll hold close
Before our paths diverge
And I’ll just hold onto my words

Slowly washing over me like the winter chill coming in waking up the truth I know about all the future things that are only in my dreams and how that’s ok with me as the cold creeps into my bones reminding to only take the memories with me and leave you to your own path step inside the warmth leaves me tingling like how you feel like coming home and i can live with that until it’s over cuz it’ll be summer then and the whole winter will have been spent falling in love with life again, cuz you opened that in me, if i can only learn to give you breathing room and maybe a little love for life too n it doesn’t have to be toward me, your smile is all I wanna see and i know life breaks us all n being left on read makes me feel small but i also know the weight on your shoulders and that i won’t grow much older like I know the magic in the air in the nights you’re right there with me and these feelings make me tipsy cuz idk what moderation means but I’m trying to find the in-between, cuz there’s beauty in all of it just how it is and nothing more than what it’s supposed to be.