FoundAlongRoad

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The edges sharpen every day
A little more focus
In a direction unwanted
Took a path off road
Stumbling through the dimming
Why even try for no
The end approaching
All the paths merge
Here I go throwing in
Here I go pressing again
Anywhere I can get
As long as I can go home
Take the turns and hope
I’m not off the cliff again
Addicted to the winding
Can we even walk each other home
It’s another after one thing
And the ones left are left wondering
Without strife how would we know
We’re even alive
Or is that what they tell us
Cuz so many can’t love
Or find their own purpose
Without taking orders from above
Whoever holds their head over us
If you’ve heard of sin in any language
When darkness closes in
It brings fear
Is it more freeing to give up free will
To think you know what’s next
Or to let it all go
And follow your own
Casting aside others’ tests
And it all meets in the end
The lights go out and no one can follow
Wherever our very essence goes
They say energy can’t be destroyed
Only change form
More comforting than a made-up throne
I’d say to each their own
But it all merges and interacts
Roadblocks and wounds you can’t take back
Yet it’s ‘so beautiful’
For all the freedoms is no freedom
Things we can’t understand
Simulation or fact
Morals and laws and capitalism
Finding our own way through that
Individual lights on parallel paths
Time dwindling
Choices mingling
But in a year you may not remember my face
I’ll still have pieces until the fog drifts them away
We’re all a collection of moments we try to hold onto
While others disappear
Does it matter if I can never seem to find
Words that could sit right
Conversations of stuttering
Sounds slipping out the side
Lunging forward and crouching back
Like a sport I never tried out for
Washes over me like religion
I know my darkness well
Only pieces others can tell
Count on one hand those I let in
Still alone where I stand
But not forgotten
We all end up at the unknown
Some more than most
They say we’re all just walking each other home
But who made these roads
Tells us where to go
A lifetime of keeping my hands to myself
So to speak
While throwing all the rest of me
Into every journey to soak up every step
Every silent revelation from whoever walks next
To me
For a bloody league or a healing yard
And I’ve wrapped the twine
Around only her hand and mine
For better or for worse
Just not your same old curse
We make freedoms of our own
Their footsteps step into the depressions left
By those who came before
They say insanity is repetition while expecting more
Every generation we branch off a little farther
Sometimes off of the edge
There’s only so far we can go
And my mind has always been traveling
Up in the unmarked alone
But I will walk you home
Faltering and unsure
We’ll take all the detours
And still always come home
Wherever we call it so
And the next destination no one knows
Drink up every emotion, cry out every toxin
We can’t take it with us when we go
A lifetime spent
Holding on to regret
Searching for a hand to hold
A light to guide
Tripping up those off to the side
Space between or arms entwined
For a decade or a night
We’re still always walking
Trying so hard to hold still
Sometimes crawling
But time moves linearly for us until
Across the world
Between barriers
Walking each other home.