If you were gonna love me you would by now..
Not to put a time on it but it’s not right somehow..
If you were gonna want me it would’ve happened by now..
Things my brain whispers when hope peeks its head out..
Some things just aren’t meant to be..
Some things just missing in me..
I know if I was more I could draw them out
Those elusive parts of you you skirt around..
I can see your pieces like a puzzle someone forced together
Perfect but everything in the wrong place
But I’m not the hand that can gently tear it down and retrace
All the scars in you
The potential that glows brighter than these stars in you..
And you’re still a masterpiece.. tucked away..
I can’t steal you can’t bring you to your rightful place
But I can see it dancing behind my eyes like a million timelines where if things had been different, everything could be less difficult..
Beautiful in a free way
I can almost touch it
Like a hologram of all the poison
If I could just pluck it
The stunting in your veins
Run to a place where it can’t reach you
Rewind to that time like watching above you..
And if you were saved and lived your truth..
But in front of me I see all of you..
The twisted places you left knotted when they told you to..
And I hear you come so close only to..
Deny you could’ve been any other way..
I wouldn’t have you any other way
Except free
Except without the weight
It all put on you
Can’t accept the way
You let them fail at loving you..
But I’m not the one
I’m not the sun telling you to grow this way I’m not the shears saying cut here and you’ll end up healthier I’m not the winter sending you down only to come back stronger..
I am not so delusional any longer..
But I still see you..
Every winding path from here to your past you quietly usher me onto
I feel hushed inside observing in quiet the mysteries that make up you
The complexities the honor to have set in my mind words that allow me to visualize so much about you..
And the tears I then cry cuz there’s no architect of time to go back and redo..
But I wouldn’t want to undo you..
Created perfectly but locked in your own mind and the concepts you don’t know so you can’t realize there’s a reason for every bit inside.. and I don’t know it all but I know enough I know those words and more than you I know your worth and more than rewinding I’d only show you
How to forge your own key and set yourself free but I can only give words to you..
Ghosts of potential walk with me all of the time
I don’t speak about it
Yours will be by my side..
I’ll never stop trying to open your eyes
But I can never forget you are in your own time
Your own life
If we were to meet our potential we wouldn’t be very human then
Born of flaws into lessons..
And I know this is one of mine..
That I’m not anything divine
And maybe I’m just haunted by
Imaginations of another line
If this was all a different life
A better world..
I live lost in better worlds for most of mine..