FoundAlongRoad

And when I don’t deny
Everything I want
Instead make peace with never having it
It’s easier to get by
I find my smile again
And in the sadness I am remembering
That it’s ok to want these things
And it’s ok to never have them
I was trying to keep hope away
And I left myself all slanted
The truth is I will always be a little back and forth
And maybe always want a little more
And then have days where I am sure
That would be the worst thing
And it’s ok
I am always both sides, inside
And I can’t hide
From myself
It’s ok to both want and not want
So many things so much
And it’s ok to get a little lost in you
Or a little sad stuck in me
On different days
Cuz I need to learn the meaning
Of moderation.
I’m a work in progress but I get scared of my damn self
And of pain
Of making mistakes
And become a self-fulfilling prophecy
I gotta talk to myself with honesty
And say it’s ok
To feel this right now
And then however we’ll feel tomorrow
Let’s try to see where it’s coming from
But it’s ok to want
And not want
To be in love
Or torn up
And other days to be pure sunshine at the thought of that toxic line that’s perfect
For me
Until it ends in time
It’s ok.