FoundAlongRoad

20 feet away
Might as well be wherever you’ve been this decade
But it feels like fucking inches
Like right now we could be kissing
And it drags my whole will across the beat-up floor
Straining against my own rib cage
Takes every bit of it to stay away
Cuz I know a tiny part of you might want me there
But I know a big part of you really doesn’t
And if I didn’t want you so damn much
And if I couldn’t feel the pull like you’re the fucking sun

Maybe I could sleep at night

And I know you didn’t ask for this
Sleeping alone wishing it was with him
And I wake you a million times
With all my restless nights
Try not to think of you so loudly
Cuz your life doesn’t revolve around me
Back and forth on the stairs
Avert my eyes from over there
Is it better or worse when the door is open
Cuz to me it’s always closing
And I can’t get a fucking grip
Didn’t ask to feel like this
Goddamn magnets under your skin

Used to live in your living room
I guess then I had an excuse
To always be near you
Did I feel like this back then
I remember craving you like committing a sin
But not this sunshine..
Not this alive
And I swear I’m fine
If I could close my eyes
And not feel you one hallway behind
Drifting away
Pulling me in

Maybe I can sleep tonight ..