I’ve been in other places for a while
Took steps back and then stepped back
At the sight of that smile
Like a welcome mat
For continual laughs
In the dark hours our minds run miles
And I was feeling all that scary stuff
For no reason
Did I pick it up
From you or you from me
Honestly it fucks with me
Cuz I don’t even believe
In very much, you know
So how did I go where you go
It was like agitation, something prickling at my skin, handing me a low
I’m sure there’s a logical explanation
‘It’s a conundrum for another day, kid’
Cuz we don’t let those things drive us crazy anymore
And maybe we’ll miss out on what this was all for
But I like to look at it as being able
To take it for what it is
Without being reckless
So I don’t let my mind whirl to dissect
Every little thing or word said
Anymore
But my eyes still wander up your fingers
And to the crinkles around your eyes
I still look at you and see youth linger beyond time
Then soak up all the differences, I guess we really are no longer kids, but you’re better than a cliche, not just rosè, what’s that Japanese art put back together with gold..
Kintsugi..
Taking in all of you reminds me of this..
Not some fragile thing
They say more beautiful for having been broken
I don’t think all the breaking is fair
But you take it and come back even more breath-taking
Do you see the worth in that?
I don’t know why I let my mind travel down these roads
That only build until I fucking burn
With want of you
-()-
These flames have turned to white from blue
And destroy every nerve ending
Overloaded at the thought of you
Nothing else will ever do..
I really hope that isn’t true
Then again the heat of even the fantasy I’m pretty sure has singlehandedly raised global warming by a few degrees so if this is the peak for me then someday they’ll find this body scorched from within at the thought of you and me but it’s worth the risk in quickened breath for every much-more-than-little death and when all the rest doesn’t haunt my heart then this is my favorite part and if it’s all I ever got then I hope you don’t mind me writing some new plot built off of memories you wish I forgot -()-
To keep it from you..