FoundAlongRoad

Lately I’ve been reminding myself
That no one’s trying to crawl inside my mind

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And all her pretty words don’t mean
She ever wants to really know me

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And she doesn’t listen or ask much
Caught in her own tornado out of touch

Like I don’t make room in my lack of life
To wanna know what you think about at night

I know I never let anyone deep enough
And I don’t volunteer much
But it’s all right there if you want
And I tell myself it’s just me
Who wants to know even my friends deeply
But there’s a part of me that says
If they don’t even care to check
Then they don’t really love me
But there’s a part of me that says
That doesn’t mean they don’t care
But it’s lonely here
In my head

I have a best friend who always asks
Reciprocate energies back
And an ex who drives me nuts but at least she cares too much
Sometimes

But where does my heart long for
Emotional side needing more

But even then it’s never right
So does it even matter any fucking night

If I never wanna go there again
Why do I want you with me in it

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And if I’m not going there with you
Why do I care about the pieces missing

I guess it’s just lonely in here
Trying to be love
All by myself
It won’t stop me
(I hear your silent screams)
That’s not how it works
Cuz I’m on your team
It just reminds me not to go too deep
And sometimes it hurts..
But I got me
And I think
“You’d really love me if you could”
I’m stuck somewhere in between
Just loving broken things..
Like your heart