FoundAlongRoad

I’ve got it so bad
I don’t think there’s any coming back
Just try to keep myself in line
Heart jumping all of the time

Normally it’s your hair down
that makes everything a little slower now
like I can’t quite breathe
but tonight sitting there in a tie-dyed tee messy bun and that smile
Like the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen..

I’ve got it so bad
It’s really quite annoying
Don’t think there’s any coming back
First thought in the damn morning

I wonder what you’re doing
And if you ever think of me
I wonder if you’re happy
And if not how you could be
No one fucking told me
If you fall in love after thirty
You turn back into a teen

I’ve got it so bad
Thought that night with all the grief
And the week of being almost mad
That you couldn’t talk to me
Would temper all these damn feelings in me
Guess there’s no coming back
The second you smile it’s like I forget how to speak

I was hoping this week would be good for me
Give you a break and get back my sanity
But I miss you more every day
And I don’t even want all that couple mess
I just wanna be where you are
And have good nights again

But lately I’ve got it so bad
Don’t think there’s any going back
The way I feel is just a part of me
But the part where I turn into an idiot can go ahead and fucking leave

I keep finding new depths and reactions in me
Last week, when I wasn’t being worried, I wanted to tear your clothes off with my teeth
Last few days I wanna know everything in your brain and every thought you think
Now it’s always both or somewhere in between
It’s really quite gross the way I’ve been acting
I swear I can be your friend again
I don’t want all that couple-y shit
I’m just falling in love and sin
How do you keep doing this to me
I know I’ve been shitty, I act so stupid wanting you near and then not having a damn thing to say cuz I’m so fucking distracted by the way your eyes catch the light or your lips say my name
And it’s all I can do to not just cross the room and see if you still taste the same
Still kiss the same
I don’t miss it the same
It’s worse
And it’s ok cuz I’ve dealt with all this including the worst
I think that’s why my heart constantly wants to burst
Cuz I let it all go and gave up on you
Then it came back around like brand new
I may want a million things I can never have
But I don’t even actually want that
It’s just where my brain goes when you make me so happy
And I’m so damn attracted
To everything about you
But if you want the truth
Your smile like that
Hearing your laugh
Late night venting
And eventually consenting
To a little while in the same bed
That’s all I need to be happy like this
I just have to stop myself
cuz I’m dying to kiss you like nothing else
Just a symptom of everything
Cuz my body screams rush, we need it
I’ll figure out how to calm it down
Sorry for all this in the meanwhile it’s just that
I’ve got it so bad
Don’t think there’s any going back
And it’ll all be fine
All good things come in time.