FoundAlongRoad

And I think I’m starting to let go of this fever dream
In my mind at least
As my heart adjusts to knowing what it wants
It’s still you, it’s still us
But it’s settled in like this is just a piece of me
That’ll never be
And it’ll be ok
Probably wouldn’t work out anyway
I know I’m a goddamn mess
Can’t give you everything
Like you deserve
Even though I still think he’s worse
And now I guess you’ll always be a part of me
And now I guess I’ll always be ok deep down
No matter what I choose or how
But it’s a part of me
This thing I don’t want to want but want it so much
The words I’ll never hear from you
Touches I’ll never feel from you
The pain cools to just a part of me
Lit up sometimes
By the look in your eyes
But I’ll be fine
I’ll be fine

Cuz I know I fail everyone
And at everything
But I like who I am
Take it or leave it
And I’ll never be enough
I can see it
But I’ll be fine

My babies separated, stressful life
Temporary chaotic respite
My heart tears at how he cries
All I wanted was to give them a good life
I fail at everything
But it takes two to tango
I didn’t fail them alone
I’ll always put them first
At least the one that’ll be mine
And he’ll never have what he deserves
But we’ll be alright

I hope it’ll be alright
Sometimes I get scared
When you lose everything you lose your fear
But he’s what I have left
Left here
And I’m scared
Cuz I fail everything
Don’t know where we’ll go from here
But we’ll be fine
One day at a time
I hope we’ll be fine
Little fur children of divorce
I know he’s attached too much
But so am I
People suck
And dogs are just love
If I could go back I’d stick it out for them
I’d try
For longer
And then maybe I’d never get the chance to fall for you
Maybe we’d both be better off
But I don’t think so
Guess it depends how it ends
But you made me brand new
Well at least close to
And then his cries remind me who I am
And what I can’t do
I’ll be fine
It’ll all be fine too