FoundAlongRoad

And would you care to know?
I’ll never know I guess
But sometimes you get that look again
I never understood it
And yet it’s the only thing I’ve ever known
In anyone I knew what it meant
And just how to get it
I don’t play those games anymore
But when you slide your eyes that certain way
I wonder if I love the chase
Or if I’ll just always want you this way
I know it’s dopamine
You say I catch feelings
I say I catch addiction to good sex
And I’ve always cared about you
But it’s been so long and it stuck with me
I’d always say it was just the good sex
And fucking chemistry
Was it all in my head
All the moments leading up to it
When you’d kiss me
I knew I wanted you then
And it built up in what we didn’t discuss
Knew you needed a reason to have what you want
But God I didn’t expect it to fuck me up
I swear I’ve had better I could swear it
But when I try to compare nothing comes near it
The tension, the anticipation
‘my hands are shaking from holding back from you’
I remember that was true
A delicate dance and then I think my world exploded
Every heated sound and touch, as perfect as if someone wrote it
You’re so fucking beautiful
And you don’t even know it
Sometimes it runs through my mind..
I’ve been addicted to some women
My ex was a fucking drug
And the suspense felt the same
But the payoff was never enough
Never the same as your touch
What the fuck did you do to me
I’ve been here before but with you it’s never enough
Years and space and you’re gone with barely a trace and yet when they ask I always say you. I say the chemistry. Maybe it was you giving chase, like you couldn’t help it when you had a few.
Drove me crazy cuz I felt it too
I wonder if I felt like this after the first time, and I know I had to
Was dying for more, curious and missed your lips
But for you, was it anything like this?
I’m the one that blows minds
If I care to
But this was something else and I feel like a fucking kid
Like damn what happened
That couldn’t have been one-sided
The connection
Fuck the feelings but the magnets -I swear you had one too
I think it would kill me to hear it wasn’t like that for you..
I swear in that moment you were right there
I think I can’t find the words right so it’s haunted me for these years
And now it’s something brand new
My friends say they’re so sure and for a moment I was too
That it was just a matter of time, inevitable, me and you
One more time or a hundred or two
But I lost my footing and I’m trying to
remember who I am and what I always do
To leave the old me in the memories and mistakes
But here I am writing about you
What the fuck is it that you do
Without ever wanting to
I guess I’ll only have time to find out
If I can keep my head down
And I swear that’s what I’ll do
At least I’ll try, for you
Cuz you didn’t ask for any of this that I didn’t ask for either
And I won’t ask for what I want cuz that was never how it was
Let it only make me a little sweeter
And not a burden
But I swear in some moments you’re with me right there..
Maybe it’s all in my head, but I swear..