FoundAlongRoad

This is what I was waiting for why’d it take so long
But I examine it and realize it’s just the same old song
Same pattern from the same place they all come from
Wrap me up in something a little toxic that I can build up in my mind
Just don’t try to be mine
Reject my vulnerability and I suddenly call it
The steam dissipates and leaves behind
Everything I couldn’t see couldn’t feel
Like I needed the support for a while to heal
Until I was ready to face the truth
Delusions I use to protect myself
And it was beautiful
And crazy
And it tricked me
And it saved me
These things I always do subconsciously
Like there are two of me
And I know it made me better
But how am I ever
Supposed to change
When I can never trust my own brain
Broken beyond help
I’m happy in it myself
Just don’t come too close..
I’m only good in delusional.