FoundAlongRoad

This is the wound I was waiting for
Did I forget
Did you used to do this
I know you didn’t mean it
I know I’m incredibly over-sensitive
But it’s been a day and it still hurts
Echoes of those words
Like everything they threw at me
When I was too young to see
That I’m the lucky one
To be this way
And I know that now
But I gave you this power
So now everything cuts that much deeper
And the path to that scar was always the steepest
I know you didn’t mean it
But I’m still a little bit bleeding
Cuz I can handle so much
From people who don’t matter
But when I care you can so easily
Shatter me
And idk what that shy smile you gave me meant
When I walked in
I could feel my face match it
Maybe you read more of this
And idk if that’s bad or good
Anxious waiting for the reaction
But I’ve been trying to take some power back
You really got me to jump right into the deep end
I can’t even really regret it
I needed it a while ago
And it’s good you bring out all these wounds
But the fact you have my private words like that
Just makes it that much more raw
To face it all
And now I oscillate back and forth
Between constantly loving you more
And seeing all the ways I’m not made for
Anything good anymore..