FoundAlongRoad

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But beat a lot of me down
Don’t regret the honesty now
Though your truth is a bit capricious
But combo of ouch and can’t help you value yourself
Don’t wanna get caught on an anchor dragging down
Own chaos now, went to dangerous distraction n gotta pull self out of what could kill me and be able to see I still can’t trust myself
Was getting somewhere and up crept hell from own subconscious and I thought about all the reasons n part was not loving myself and the rest felt better sometimes but that old wound gets disguised and is so dangerous.. can’t let me love you too much cuz it’s unbalanced and I walk right up to progress only to lose touch like a plug pulled from what I was filling up it never comes back try to give myself that and soak up the energy from the giving love and the good stuff but in your darkness nothing is enough and I feel it pull if I don’t release the suction but doing so feels like fucking letting go I swear I won’t but you cut your own rope and push yourself out on your own and I scream into the storm directions you can’t hear until I’m hoarse, n I get caught up in the net my own mind projects just a couple of illnesses in a hell of a world trying to be more than diagnostic words in separate battles for worth..