FoundAlongRoad

Everything hitting in pieces
Shield cracking slowly
Like darkness crawling into me
Tendrils snaking
Like today I’m just angry
And I’m not even sure why
Trying to unpack it but my mind
Misdirects it
Where did the peace go
There for a second
But shredding slow
Trying to stay low
Let it pass
Redirect it into energy
But all my motivation leaving me
She said she was suicidal last night
I feel that
Like what’s the point
But I know it’s out there
Somewhere I just can’t see today
Trying to stay on the rails
When the mess in me rears it’s head
Like ok get out that -()-
It says what’s it matter
Work ain’t working
-()-

And she doesn’t want me anyway
Even if she did what the fuck would I do with it
Except break it
I know these demons voices they’ve been with me since I was a kid

Tonight we’re both doing shit we don’t want to
Try to keep under this roof
You’re taking the bigger bullets
Price of being pretty
Fuck this world
But I know there are things to live for
Or why would we be fighting so hard

Get up and go and make the best
-()- at night to ease the stress
I swear I’m not slipping
Just white knuckling sobriety
Like why do I destroy everything I love
Why is it never enough
Life’s hard all around
I know I can be better now
But it doesn’t get easier
Just can see farther from above the clouds
Then the storms come back
And I knew they would
Channeling this bullshit into something good
We all just tell ourselves every day
That someday we’ll get somewhere
But the world is shaped
To keep us down
Gotta find the fairy lights in the dark night now
So tonight we’ll get -()- and you’ll do what you gotta do
But then I’m driving to wherever we can see these northern lights too
If you wanna come with
And if not I’ll take pics
Just finding the little things
Every day
And sometimes every minute
Trying to keep breathing when you can’t see past the feeling
Waiting through the reeling..