FoundAlongRoad

You haven’t said anything and today was hard everywhere
Now I keep giving in to my impulses while the universe screams ‘beware’
Like I have no chill no self control
And I know I’ve been avoiding healing
Cuz I woke up to that damn nightmare

But what am I supposed to do about it
Can only find the peace I can
Need to lock myself out of my phone
Before I go so far you won’t come back again

But she comes to my door saying she’s just making sure I’m home
And I feel like I’m home

Looking at all those pictures that song was in my head
Home is wherever I’m with you
My heart has been home a few times
Wrong or right
It all still lives inside

And everything is up in the air
From eviction
To whether you still care

She checks in and
This attachment has grown on me into something that feels healthy and yet I feel myself pushing boundaries
Same thing I do with you but I think even with her its about you
And about the dark places I can’t fix
I keep trying
But they take time and
I just hope I have some left
I swear I was looking for patience
I swear I keep trying to cool it

If you love her wash your heart before you’re with her, heal yourself before you try
I read that again tonight

It all feels like home and yet before I’ve been burned
I swear I’m looking for my patience..
I always go hard until it breaks.