FoundAlongRoad

You said maybe you knew back then and I think about 13 years..
I know I knew back then but timing can be everything
You said you were wild you would’ve torn me up
I would’ve let you and then taken years to come back up
So maybe timing can be everything..
But hindsight is a bitch too
Everything we’ve been through
All the lost years with you
I know you wouldn’t even know who you are without what you’ve gone through but do you need it all, I’m somehow both sure n not that I do
To be able to love you
The way I want to
So time gave us lessons and trauma that needs addressing
It gave us so long, to finally get here
And it still felt rushed
And yet never soon enough
There’s a line that echoes in my head all of the time..
“Would’ve asked you earlier, be mine”
When I think about
All the years we may never get
Like so much wasted time
And don’t get me wrong
I cherish every breath
In your presence
Every crack of light and faded scar
The tears and blood that let me see who you are
The laughter and joy meant to be expanded on
And I know none of it was wasted cuz of who we’ve become
But did it all need to happen
Did we need to be so broken
I will never see the divine plan
In some of the things you have and haven’t told me
So I’m grateful towards time
For every second your heart is mine
And I’m angry inside
At how it took so much hell just to end up back at each other’s side
And I already love you too much to even let myself contemplate
The unknown quantity of our days
Of how many still remain
Did fate need you to try to kill yourself so many times
Did it need us to be scattered across all these lines
To love each other like this
With all our wisdom n sharply broken pieces
Or could we have saved all of it
Back then
I know we couldn’t
But we’ll never really know it
Never really know anything..
Except the value of right now, of finally, and of every minute.