FoundAlongRoad

I was cynical today
Let my last stand fall away
It didn’t go gently
That one lonely boundary
Took something out of me
To take it down
But then I read what you wrote..
Idk yet how to marry in my head
The things you take from me
And the love you give me
The ways you break me
Then make life worth living
I think reality is just insane
For anyone paying attention

I should just go to bed
Every day has been too much lately
But then
You kiss me like you’re sorry even as you follow through
You curl into my arms like I was made for you
You cut me and I see you trying to hold back
To come back
You make me question what there is you love about me
And then I read the words you write ❤️
I’ve never been on such a ride 🎢
But this is real life
This is you letting me in
Telling me about the voices in your head
It makes so much sense
In how you seem like different people
From one moment to the next
I’m trying to hold space for all of them
And this is real life
And it’s really something..
It’s you making me feel only this big
Cuz idk yet how to not internalize it
And us not touching on it
And it builds until I’m desperate
To find a way to handle this
Without breaking
And then you write these things to me
What I need to hear
Almost enough to fucking heal it
And you let me in
And I see the heart and mind I fell in love with..

Both darkness and light, beautiful and dangerous inside
I can’t imagine what it must be like
For the first time
So I try to hold space for all of it
And every day I’m failing
But I try again
Cuz I see you doing the same thing
And idk where any line is
Maybe love is supposed to be insane
Or maybe it shouldn’t feel this way
But it doesn’t matter at the end of the day
When you lay in my arms and I watch you breathe
Just thankful you’re still here with me
Cuz this is real life
It’s not pretty
It’s still magic
It’s part romance
Part tragic
Some days idk which way is up
But then you kiss me and it’s enough
To just let each moment come as new
To let myself just love you
Cuz I do
Oh, I do..
Through hell and heaven and the mundane too
The thrills and kills and rejuvenation
Maybe it’s all just a simulation
This real life
But I’ve had enough of trying to decide
What’s right
I said I’d let you destroy me
Not believing you really would
Now it’s been time to put truth to those words
I was never good with so much hurt
But in my failings you still stay
And I still find this love for you in the darkest day
So this is real life
Come what may.