FoundAlongRoad

Will this body be useful at any time before I die
To sink into you wholly for just one night
To love you, holy, for a moment in time

Endings bring death to mind
And hers brings to mind mine
Cuz with her a piece of me will die
It’s not the first time
But it’s not tonight

I want to hone my shape like an instrument
To make up for the shortcomings in what I have to give
And because you like boys who are pretty
So maybe you’ll see me differently
It’s alright, with you, that I have to mold into better
The truth is everyone expects it in one way or another
So who’s to say it means I should just walk away
When it’s only fact that there are improvements to be made
It’s ok, with you, because you loved me back then
And if you don’t want me like I want you who can blame you
I can and will bend into something more pleasing
If that’s what it takes to unlock these walls you used to let me behind
Because with everyone it was always trying to be what I shouldn’t have to
Replacing emotions with physical and it’s not like that with you
with you we’ve already walked down this path to
Something deeper
And I made mistakes and you weren’t ready
If we’re not meant to be then time will tell me
And I’ll be there anyway as long as you let me
Cuz I’ll learn to only give what you want to accept
And pour the rest into words yes I’ve been here before
In love with potential until it fades
but you’ve always been a one that got away
And I always hoped it was temporary
Until our someday
So if it’s not in the cards I swear I’ll be ok
Cuz the truth is I could never blame you or ask for more than you have to give
And id end up with answers to my most important questions
After the touch of your lips
If it’s only a second it’ll still be everything
If it leads to rejection I’ll never feel the sting of it
The only pain is in knowing how far I’ve fallen to undeserving
Not like youre a gift just my favorite person
And I haven’t exactly been human
And if I’m gonna grow it might as well be into something pretty as well as healthy
For what I have left of it
For what I can do of it
Chasing one perfect moment
I dont need forever cuz it’s all infinite