FoundAlongRoad

Maybe I can convince myself that you’re two people..
Maybe you really don’t remember much, maybe you really don’t mean most of the stuff..
Cuz you seem like you love me
In the good times
And I know things get twisted, in your mind
So maybe I can separate the woman I love
Who makes me feel like everything I’ve dreamed of
I found in you
From the one who screams and spits poison and makes me wanna bleed until I stop existing..
It used to be rare
Maybe it will be again
I can’t give it up just cuz it’s fucking hell
When it’s also absolutely heaven
I can’t let you go
I don’t wanna hate me
But I can’t not love you
And when its good you make me love me too
Idk if it’s enough to undo
The damage
But it’s so much I won’t let go of
Of you
So maybe I can learn to separate you from
The rest of you
Cuz I’ll love every broken piece
Even when they cut me
But when I’m so wholly vulnerable with you
And you switch
There’s too much power in it
I didn’t realize
It would be used to break me
I tell myself you don’t mean it
But I have to find a way to take the power away
When its used for pain
And idk how to when I love you in all the ways
And that venomous face looks like you..
But maybe I can separate
It into two
Cuz I know I can’t not love you.