FoundAlongRoad

Sometimes I wonder if you hold me to a higher standard cuz we have a higher standard of love or if you really did just love her more

Maybe I should see it as you love yourself more now so you’d put up with less
But I can’t help but feel some way when you say you’d leave me for not having control over anger when that’s how you cross my line every day
And
You put up with so so so much worse from her

I don’t wanna compare and that flipping out isn’t who I wanna be but damn did that hypocrisy choke me but then I guess when you first crossed that line I just kinda dotted mine instead of holding it cuz I didn’t wanna let you go
Isn’t that the same BS I always do..
And then I hold it in until I burst like this and there were other things tied up in it but overall I can’t help but think it’s pretty ironic.

I guess I’ve been coping badly and letting it bring out the worst in me and I’ve just been letting and letting and letting.. so much letting and waiting and we’ll figure it out later-ing
Idk which to apologize for more.