FoundAlongRoad

I just love you today
There still something sad and broken in me
But I love you every day
I know it’ll all come back and I’m scared I’m in pieces
But I broke all my promises to myself
Cuz I feel like you love me, today
I know I should talk about it
I know I’m still in a bad place
When I think about it I still start to shake
But you’re loving today
And if I block it out I don’t really have peace
But I am calm
And today that’s all I need
I know eventually it’ll rear up and consume me
But after all the chaos lately
I just wanna love you today
I don’t wanna try to tell you
I don’t wanna hear what you’ll say 💔
I just want you to love me for today.. ❤️

I thought the way you get over things and let them go
Was a blessing
And it is
Until there’s another and another and by the time it’s over I’ll never be the same again
And you just let it go

But I love you, all my days
I’m scared I’m starting to not love myself
I worked so hard to get here
But I gave you so much power
And you shredded me to the core
But I don’t know how much of it you’re even aware of..
Just like idk how you can continually do that to someone you love..
And then get mad they’re hurt
And then act like it didn’t happen

But those are problems for tomorrow
For when it happens again..
I’m still just trying to recover, I just need a minute
to just say fuck the trauma
To just love each other again

I know it’s not ok n I might not be ok
But I signed up for everything
Not knowing it could be this
And it should change it
But it doesn’t
It might destroy me
But not my love for you
So what else can I do
But love you today
I’m so scared of tomorrow
But tg you love me today
I know you’d say you love me everyday
And you didn’t leave
But baby that wasn’t love
But we’re not talking about it, today
I know I have a tendency to pack the pain away
And I can’t this time
But I can for tonight
Maybe I’ll be stronger tomorrow
Right now when I say you love me
I mean you’re being loving
And yourself again
Atleast I hope it is
And the rest isn’t
I can’t deal with it right now
I know if I wait too long I’ll break down again
But you love me today
And I love you every day
Tomorrow’s not here yet.