FoundAlongRoad

The things your mind conveniently forgets or files away
Like that no matter how much you love someone it won’t be enough to be their anti drug

The things that rattle around increasingly impulsive every day
That she’s dying and you might be dying and aren’t we all dying and our generation is just so much faster and the rest are all already dead and where are we going if not just into each other’s arms until it’s over

When every other feeling falls off is it true love or shared starvation intensifying connection
When your hearts and minds align and the world is ending what is the difference in the answer then
I just want every second with you
I don’t care if anyone cares
Marry me today, bury your scars into me, I can’t love them away but I can damn sure try.

There’s always another shoe to drop
There’s not always a tomorrow
Please don’t give in to time rushing you away from me don’t make it any easier for death to take from me what I’ve looked my whole life for cuz I will breathe infinity into your every heartbeat if you just walk with me and I will grow until I can carry you when it’s all too heavy please lean on me and I’ll rip my soul open if you want to see and feel every strand connecting you to me, please hold on..
I don’t care what this warped society thinks of me, it’s been shaped to beat down every bit of beauty so I don’t care what this misshapen leech of a capitalist patriarchy wants from me I will wring every bit of freedom and serenity and wild love from every moment i have left and i no longer care to do so without you
I don’t care to be who I was before you when I now feel galaxies in every touch from you and see millennia of blood sacrifice reflected in your eyes, I have nothing more to offer this sadistic existence, this dimension of ruined innocence where only the strongest survive but at what price, oh the things they’ve taken from you my love you are a warrior in a coliseum you weren’t even tall enough to enter, now left standing amongst corpses with your magnificent presence, forged in meaningless torture, hanging by a thread a weak tether but you survived so much and I have nothing for the senseless darkness but everything for you, everything I have, for you.. and yet it can only stem the exsanguination from damage already inflicted but I will share my body with you if your life force cannot abide in yours but I will not lose you without the gouge of claws left on the entire world. I will not seek an exit from madness if in it is where you smile, I will not regret one single tear filled with the forever of having you near.