FoundAlongRoad

..and everything has changed
Sweet ascension every day
Felt the axis tilt with the angle of your face
On that first day

At first falling felt like it was out of a plane
Perfect bliss wrapped in air pressure
The ground rushing up panicking me
That you’d see right through me and find nothing to keep

Yesterday in the middle of the chaos
I found in your eyes
A glimmer of the best of me
Like I could find the rest of me
Something in the way you took my hand
When I thought you would leave
Calmed the currents inside of me

I know I know
I have a long way to go
I know I know
My insecurities make you feel like you’re on a pedestal
And I know I know
I talk too much about forever like it’s inevitable
But for me

This is it
You’re everything
I felt my very heartbeat shift
As pieces of you just sank right in
Like id always had a space for them
Without even knowing
This love touches every wound I’ve ever hidden
With a soft caress
Coaxing hope from the very depths
Of all my madness
Parts of me that have never known peace
Now unclench like a deep breath
Absorbing everything you are
That the world took for granted
I will never understand it
Cuz to me

You seem like everything
That I’ve ever wanted
When I was young and naive and thought love would be sweet
And when I was older and broken and just wanted to feel seen
And all the times in between
When I dreamt of someone
I could connect with for the rest of my life
I stopped believing a long time ago
In having anyone who could understand me
Much less still want me
Fantasies of someone intelligent and funny
A little attitude but a big heart too
I just wanted hours of pouring ourselves into
Each other
For forever
Someone with a similar warped view
To know the darkness but fight to not be consumed
Someone who wanted exciting but didn’t get lost
In forgetting the beauty of everything that’s soft
In a safe love
The more broken I was inside the harder I tried to give up
On letting anyone
Even try
To know me
And I met you at a time where I was finding myself again, learning to love through the heaviness
So much undone yet
But you came in like a projection of
All I’d ever dared to want
As if the fantasy can’t even touch the real thing
And it didn’t feel like reality
But it’s been sinking in slowly
That I’m not hallucinating
And you’re not some cruel joke
Every second I see more of you
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You’re the best parts of every exploded star
The cosmic dust that makes you up
Must have came from somewhere far off
Where everything is magic

And I know I know I know
I tend to fall so hard for potential
I know I know
I loved you back when you were a whole different person
And I know I know
We’re still just starting, exploring, cautious battered hearts
But to me

I feel closure with every other feeling I’ve ever had
Like a hard line between the past
And the second you kissed me
Your love feels like the sweetest baptism
Forgiving and taking away
Every hopeless mistake
Like in your eyes is where my whole heart belongs
These words will never do it justice
But I swear I’ll never do you wrong
There’s not an ounce of blood in my veins
That wants it any other way
Then to just become the best of the potential in me
To love you every day better than the one before
Until days don’t exist anymore

And I know I know
Sometimes our trauma will win out
I know I know
It’s not all gonna be rainbows
But I know, oh I know
I’m never gonna give up or walk away

Every molecule of you
Burns everything else away
Like a cleansing fire
Like a soothing breeze
Intertwining into an inferno in me
And if you’re not there just hold my hand here
I’ll wait
I swear I’ll walk at your pace
I just wanna give you every bit of the miracle you’ve given me
I’ve never done love like this
I might stutter in it but I’ll never quit

I just wanna be the place where you feel safe
The touch where you feel beautiful
The laughter lighting up your face
The glint in your eyes when you look in mine
I just wanna love you every day
I wanna be the hand you hold, who you’re walking with
On the way to loving yourself again..
You deserve the whole universe
I can’t make it all better
But I will learn with every breath
How to make it easier
Through the hard times we’ll come out the other side
And I’ll only love you stronger
I know that you don’t know all the things I know
And I can’t tell the future
But I’ll give you all time we can get
And when we’re just atoms in the atmosphere again
maybe i’ll still love you like this.