FoundAlongRoad

I feel like it all died
Like the you that was everything left
And I mourn it
Then I read how much you say you love me
And I miss you
I miss feeling loved
And loving you
But it isn’t the cage that took it away
It could be the salvation but hasn’t been going that way
And I can’t forget everything since
How it really felt
And now how it’s different
In the best ways
For me
What does that mean
There’s no hope
Or should I just try to be me and hope you don’t take it the worst and if you still hate me then we’ll know
I know you love me but you hate me
And I hate the love that isn’t love
What happened
From the beginning
It feels futile and I’m drifting
Then the guilt the hope the tenderness
Whispers to me
Try again..
I’m scared to and scared to not
Scared to stay and scared to move
Why couldn’t we just have love
Trauma burrowed so deep in you
I have my own i don’t need a sequel
But I know you try
In that way where you dk what you’re doing
Counts for something
But how much
And now how do I go about hitting reset
To these preconceived notions