FoundAlongRoad

I think we met too late
Think her and I were too early
Or not meant I guess idk
But you
I think we were too late
To be who we could’ve been
To have what we could have
But idk if it even would’ve worked then
I like to think it would have
The things I love about you are in there
Covered over with traumatic habits
Venomous wounds
Vice versa
And I’m all wrong for you
I’m soft for you
Too deep in it to leave like I should do
But you don’t even know me
And I don’t think you want to
Just want me to stay, to love you
And I will
But you don’t even see you
And still
You keep trying
Running on a hamster wheel you don’t see
And every bit I try to give you
You don’t want or think you need
You just want me to be
Who you think I am
And yet completely
Different
Cuz you hate the things you think you know about me
That aren’t even reality
Or love really
But then won’t see underneath
And I can’t make you
Can’t even make you see you
I know limitations when I see some
After a few times beating my head against them
Not seven years anymore
But I’ll stay cuz you think you want me to
And cuz sometimes I still do
But I can’t make you see you
Not in any way that could stick
So I know I’ll be your villain
I’ve already accepted it
But I’ve realized I want to live through it
I guess I’m finding me again
In the pieces you cast away
And the ones you sometimes hold gently
I find so much of you too
Only for it to be lost again
I hope you live through it too
More than anything
And one day maybe you’ll heal
And figure out what’s real
Idk if till then you’ll keep me around
Cuz I wanna survive it now
But I want you to too
And idk how
To be anything more than supporting
In the role you cast me
Can’t save you when you drown
You swear you can swim
As I watch the water coming in
But we’ve been finding out..
Well I have..
You never remember one time to the next..
And I can’t blame you
And I still see the light in you
But mine’s not out
It’s guarded now
I’ll share it with you as much as I am able
And you’ll continue to tread water looking for stable
Slipping under, coming up for air
I love the pieces of you that tend to disappear
So the least I can do
All I can do
Is be here
And when the tide gets too high
I won’t know until I’m already numb
But I know I can swim
I just dk if the current will drag you in
So ill be here..