FoundAlongRoad

I know it’s fine, I know it’s ups and downs
I know it’s life
I know it’s just a bad day
But I can’t get back so easily
So many back and forth things in my head
Must feel like yours
All the things you said
Validation and running the fuck away
I feel like that today
So how could I ever blame you
I know we need this space
But I just wanna feel ok in it again
I know I’ll get there
Just tonight is tiring
The cycles
The uncertainty
Why must we overthink
Can’t unpack cuz something will go wrong
Easy laughs but chaos looms and comes along
I guess it’s only fair I finally have to try
To stay healthy
To walk a line
It had been too easy
I know for you it’s off and on all the time
Inside
I guess I’m just rambling
Everything is so jumbled up
Just trying to write and scream and laugh and breathe
Until it all passes safely
I could say a lot of things
Thinking of all you said
But I only know one thing
And don’t know where that ends
So I’ll say nothing
Try try tomorrow again again
As long as they keep coming.