FoundAlongRoad

Sky’s blue but it’s cold and I’m dark inside
Spent two hours of last night
Talking to a friend about life
And terrible guys
It’s the little things but they leave me shaking my head
Jokes about all of you finding the light
Then this morning she walked in
Looking close to just rolled out of bed
There’s something about naked beauty
No hiding
And the melancholy etched on her face
I couldn’t look away
I wondered what kinda night she had
Realized soon I’d probably know that
Maybe it’s not information I’m meant to have
When I turn to fantasy I always ship the women you shouldn’t
Like they shouldn’t be together but when they do it’s so intense
Like they can’t help it
I think it’s cuz I always wanted someone to want me like that
Like they can’t help it
And some days I realize I’m gonna run right out of time
I’ll never find that
I know it’s out there and the thought gets me through
But I always think someday I’ll get it together and then maybe you
Will want me
But then I know I would try and still get rejected so I only get so far
And let myself slip back to where it’s safe
Just saying someday
Running out of coming days
And I know it won’t be her
Despite being my new muse
Getting too close from afar
Feeding what I choose
And breaking the rest of the cycle
But I know it will die slow
Cuz I’ll keep thinking maybe someday
And then rather live there than in the certainty
If I ever really tried
Cuz even if I got everything I wanted
It wouldn’t be right
Everything is impossible
Anything is improbable
And we all just chase that dangling carrot
That tomorrow could be better
I set my sights on the moon
But I never
Take one foot into space
Just shine your light down on me
As I pull myself from darkness
Live in every night
Back and forth with the sometime