FoundAlongRoad

I made her cry tonight
Never meant to
Been slipping easy for someone new
And she’s dating too
But I went too far tonight
Remembering the way it was
Always open no hurt feelings
I forgot we have baggage now
And sometimes I can’t believe someone could have cared enough to be bothered
About me
I forgot about the dark times and that we both have pain to work through
Cuz we’ve gotten somewhere new, apart
I forgot the comfort is still tentative
In all the years it wasn’t
I guess it’s ironic that when we were together we could gush about whoever
And it hurts you now that we’ve broken up
I accepted what could never be and transformed through the trauma
While mourning our love
But I assumed by all the hate between then and now
And how easy it was before
That it wouldn’t hurt you more
But those tears hit hard and I’m not looking to add scars
We have a fragile contentment
Cohabitating and learning to be friends
I didn’t mean to be insensitive
I just wanna co parent and not hurt each other any more
I’ve lived lifetimes since you threw me out that door
And I haven’t felt like this since
I’ve touched stars and broken hearts
Held only my babies in my arms
But this new tightrope is different
And it’s not going anywhere
Even when I joke about in ten years
I’m still healing here
But it’s not going anywhere
if I could I would never leave here
Or wherever she goes
But I don’t wanna break this still mending cooperation
Or add to your burdens
I thought you didn’t love me anymore
I know it’ll never be the same
I’m not even that person anymore
But I’m sure it’ll still take years to mourn
The best thing we ever had before
The shattering so strong it doesn’t exist anymore
I don’t wanna revisit it tonight
But in this new era I never want to make you cry..