FoundAlongRoad

Woke up today and it hit me
That I’m just fucking happy
I thought I would feel the lacking
But the way you try and all the time you give
Amidst everything
I don’t feel a missing anything
It’s like my brain chemistry
Had been off my whole life
And then for weeks now it’s suddenly just right
I don’t feel too low I don’t feel too high
Call me Goldilocks cuz it’s just been right
Especially the last few nights
Not that there haven’t been hard times
Your heartache inside
Lack of sleep and there’s still fear in me
But it was easier to fix
Than it’s ever been
Just finding what works for you right now
Turns out to work for us
I know I always said
I only wanted a best friend
To also fuck with
But I still wanted the soft gayness
Knew relationships were where I get off track
But I thought if it was right I would want that
Turns out when it just fits
All the right chemistry exists
Best friends and sex and softness
It doesn’t matter what you call it
Or what it isn’t
Cuz today I realize this just works
Talking all the time taking time
For ourselves and for each other
Growing on our own and growing together
The way you’re naturally soft even though you say you don’t do emotion
But you’re open with your thoughts, your wants, your effort
Matching energies
Like I don’t have to push for anything
It all comes easy and when it’s hard we both figure it out
So what more could I want
I can’t think of anything now
That feels missing
Like maybe it’s just evolving the way it’s supposed to
And what we will or won’t do
But for the first time
I’m not scared
I’m not wondering what could be over there
On the other side when you heal
Cuz you will and whatever happens will still
Be exactly as it should be
But if nothing changes I think this could be
Prefect just the way it is
I knew it would be fine
Kinda up and down but half great half alright
Turns out it’s all right
Just kinda doing life
Next to you
But doing it together too
I just woke up happy..
I want that for you too.