FoundAlongRoad

I tried not to come alive again
Not like this
Cuz the rejection comes and burns another layer
It’s calm when I create and distract
And live in that
And don’t let myself want too much
To be more
To have anything
But the embers stir again
And I give in to that
To feel alive again
In this skin
It is almost spring
But that love still does not exist
Except in the eyes of strangers
Across the world, to one another
This timeline trying to tear them apart too
While over here every day it’s something new
Another ring of hell
More tears, division, anger
And the everyday connections
Searching deeper
Unable to find an answer
Gotten used to getting lost in whatever feels better
Stagnation permeating
Slow steps trying to be better
Not holding onto failure
But can’t reach a useful level
Maybe when it gets warmer..
Right now the moods flicker and the words won’t even come..