I hit different stages
I’ve found better love
For myself and my friends that are like family
For every day when I still wake up and I’m grateful
And every time I fuck up and stress that I need to do better
I found patience and goofiness
Owning awkwardness
Accepting grief and the vitality in laughter
I’ve found soul changing things I’ve been reaching toward all my life
And when I think about the progress it still makes me cry
Both theirs and mine
These are all big things swirling like we’re finding universes through timelines, the strings connecting us as kids to this time through the inside jokes and the nights we just sit in silence in comradery of the brutality that finds us all sporadically in this world that’s on fire trying to weave webs through darkness through desire through comfort climbing higher falling back doing life without a map and the only love that’s burned so long without ever shifting into less or more rises every time you fan the flame and it’s beautiful either way you choose to take us but what I’m saying is in this moment like every one before it, no matter where time will change this up, with you I’m inside love and I won’t define it or hold expectation but if I die any night I’m on the path to the life I always wanted to have and I love the depth of every kind of love I’ve been blessed to be able to grab and I love you like it’s always been you cuz for part of me it always has and what’s beautiful is the peace I’ve made with that and all that I have.