FoundAlongRoad

Sometimes I forget
How hard you fight it
Consciously
When it comes so easily
And with how much you give to it
Subconsciously
Like breathing

You know every time you’re around him
It’s like your energy gets fried
I’ve been there with attachment
But it’s not fine

But I say ‘five years’ you say ‘much sooner’
You say, with us ‘the feelings distract from life’
I say ‘mine?’
You say ‘no’

You say ‘it’s all good things’,
‘Slow down’,
‘It can still/only be physical’..
And constantly talk about, what the future will hold if we work out.. like we did from the first day, n communicate about it naturally, until the nights like this
Then say you can’t go there at all right now
Cuz you’re nowhere near over him

But when you don’t bring what’s happening to light
It’s flirting and calling and giving time and doing life and you being soft so much of the time
Enough to distract you, right
I thought it was a part of ‘life’

You admit you’re terrified in a way
So ‘uncomfortable with being cared about’
I say ‘you know that you reciprocate,
give the same and bring it out’
It’s been just natural
And it fucks you up
You know you run but you give all the reasons..

Idk what to do with that
but stay along for the ride
and hold onto my hat
Prepare for all these ups and downs
And enjoy the majority when it’s just easy
You know we’ve been building love, right..
God forbid to ever say it
You admit to ‘like’
Then immediately banish it
Then act from every piece of it..
Right back in
You say you’ve ‘never really loved anyone or maybe never been happy’
‘but you know you have loved in levels’
Honestly I feel the same, now

So I adore every twist in you
Mourn every lock to still undo
Yourself, in time
(If I have it you have all the time)
And just let it flow
Night by night
I know it’s 50/50 if it’ll work out forever
Like this connection is supposed to
Or you’ll run even further
I know you will do that too
But it’s back and forth
Only in your words
As even your body rejects the rejection
Pressing into my hands
I honestly expected worse
You’re human, you’re amazing, you’re stunted, you’re blossoming
You’re everything.
And I’m alright
With that just being a fact..
When it hurts,
If it breaks,
When you’re in my arms,
If it’s fate..
You have to accept all of you
And every possible
Mistake and miracle
That’s what makes it all real
And incredible
Like you
And I do..
I’ll go wherever it takes..