FoundAlongRoad

Made the same old mistake
Wasn’t even worth it this time
And she’s still up in the kitchen
Talking like for once she might listen
But I just can’t say anything
Feel like I’m always bringing up everything
And she isn’t interested
I fucking hate this
Which part is in my head
When she teases just a piece
And the rest shows she wants nothing to do with me
Mostly
Did I build it up
Or am I tearing it down
How did we get to where we can’t talk now..
I wanna crash out.
Which part of me is overreacting
How do I know without asking
And yet haven’t I
And hasn’t she answered
In the silence
Ever after
I can hold on to good memories only
And I can know that to try to be
Anything would be a disaster
But how do I cope with going from close
To all this that doesn’t even have to
Be so frozen
I miss really being friends
Sometimes more than all the rest
Is that my doing or by the distance
Which I’m sure I’m to blame for
Too
I just miss you
Is that ok
I already said it
And got nothing anyway
And its not like you’re not there
Just not the same
So easy shift from one question
To frustrated
I fucking blame him
For you being all twisted
But maybe I did this
Do I just keep trying
To get to talk again
Or let it go cuz all you get
Is frustrated
I wish I knew how I did this
This bad
I guess I’m not just pushing through
Letting go
As well as I thought I would have
Cuz I never thought it would be like that