FoundAlongRoad

Sometimes I think I should be studied
Was it mania for months
How could it feel so healthy
I wanna rage at being back here again
But I guess I’ve grown enough to just shake my head
I suppose that’s progress
It didn’t quite take the wrecking ball like before
To wake me up
You didn’t have to say the words
Just a while of not speaking enough
I wanna think of the times I know the spark was alive
And tell myself you run
But these delusions don’t help anyone
I’m sorry if you’ve been on the other side
Trying to have empathy for my mind
Of course you would just keep your distance
And still treat me like a person
All that good in you
I’m sorry I read into
Everything too deep
What I wanted to see
And that I didn’t see that’s what I was doing
Most of the pieces make sense like this
Now that the fog has lifted
And the ones that don’t, where the energy met
Could’ve been something
Just little moments
If I hadn’t overblown it
I just thought I was better than this
I know I owe you peace
So I’ll hold back in me
From despairing at clarity
And try to just be a better me
No easy path in healing