FoundAlongRoad

But I’ve been holding back
Like you might see it
Not writing the million things
That go through my head
Like it might manifest
More fleeing
Already keep so much inside right now
Cuz you always see expectations when I’m just trying to be me cuz you never had love like I see, where giving it is the gift n it’s not with a return address
I used that line before to describe it but even I didn’t feel it like this
A never ending glass to just reflect back
Pouring out and never empty
Only asking for naturally
Not a routine not any guard rails
Free love like the sixties
Do you think you could let me
And only open, not expecting
Not feel pressured
I may be exploding
But that’s only cuz it’s closing
When there’s no need
I know it’s only on me
I don’t put it on you
I only imagine fleeting moments just sometimes
No promises, just life
At any moment I could die
And that’s how I choose to use time
To not fight
To not try to fit anything where it doesn’t
But how do I get that across enough for it
To be comfortable again
When just bringing it up makes you skittish
So I stay chilling
But keeping an eye open for the energy return
It’s just sometimes I know you fight it on purpose
And I can’t get the words to
Show you we could be
On the same page again
When it feels dangerous to say anything
It doesn’t have to be fragile
But I know your peace is
So I’m just venting
It’s still magical
My favorite word in all its worth
I just dk how to get over
These lower hurdles
Like facepalm bro I’m not gonna trap you
I just wanna get back to
Being ourselves again..

And I’ll write all the things
I keep quiet cuz youve been socialized to find them
Overwhelming
I only hope someday you find that love
In you, for you, toward you.