FoundAlongRoad

They say ‘push them off a cliff’
Truth is she already jumped
And I just keep walking away
Thinking how much is too much
How much space until she misses me
She said I give her more than enough
But some nights it seems like
We’re so far out of touch
That I don’t think we’ll ever
Get back that energy
Even just to laugh too much
And work feels safe to her
So the phones calls there go well
But most nights back here
Are just practices in the bare
Minimum
Like going back to strangers
When we skipped all those steps
The things we know still live in my head..
But I guess it’s all dead
Even the door I keep open
Knows it’s too rusted now
And the anger simmers like the embers
Into just not knowing how
It ever had to be like this
Had to kill every little bit
That part hurts like shit
But every day I go numb
Until she walks in
Then it’s a quick heart skip
Before a slight drop
And learning to only be what
She said she wanted from the beginning
Just a roommate but we could’ve been things
We could’ve ignored whatever was too much
And still gotten along more than this so out of touch
But I’ve been accepting it
Cuz there’s no other option
Cuz I’ve still got a whole life
But every empty space feels haunted..