I’m going back
To nothing
No expectations, distractions, no disappointments
Back to when I was healthy
Cuz my fur babies
And the people that love me
Including myself
Deserve for me to heal
And concentrate on being me again
And the things that matter that hold space for me
Every day will never be easy
But I’m done trying to cover it up
Done trying to fit instead of being who I can become
I wanna feel peace again
And they deserve better
No more spiraling or worrying
Past my place in this
I’ll hold all the moments
The ones over and as they still come
But as for opening, I am just done.
I know, in the best way, I had more than enough.