FoundAlongRoad

Am I just parched again
Reaching
At the attempt
Starving at the effort
For the connection
That never was what I thought in the beginning
I know that now but here I am sinning
Down in the dirt with this thirst all these words
Desperate for the holding of them
Tainted
You know you’re slipping again
This isn’t the place for this
Let it go.
Try
But remember
Boundaries, limitations
Everything that was stated
Stop ripping open at the slightest touch
Repent
If it was right you would not be too much
You have places you can open up
Enough
To get by
To cherish it
This isn’t one
And you can try
To build on it
But take it for what it is
On your knees again
You better pray
Cuz this is it
You better change
Can’t keep doing this
You see it now
You’ve been enlightened
And found that your goddess is only human
And you can’t get high enough
You can’t get clean enough
On your knees again
False deity again
Hearing voices and swearing it’s real
Believing only in what you feel
Repent
But you feel alive in punishment
That moment before it cracks into your skin
And you find seduction in the blood drip
Running down you
Repeating sin.