FoundAlongRoad

Competing ideas
Also combine
Cuz every one is a whole person
Inside
But I’ve never had
A real adult
Toward this side
So maybe it’s growing pains
Cuz I’ve done the work
But always end up the same
Maybe it’s somewhere new
Seeing it all through other’s eyes
Like curtains to undo
And sometimes it’s like
Borrowing a bit
Of someone else’s magic
Trying to make you believe in your own
And other times
I think if I could get a handle
I could make my own home
And maybe I’ll stretch and tear
Along this spine the bones settled here
Cracking like waking
Act through the fear
Missteps and keep it in my head
Let it be healthy here..
All this trying in healing has to eventually get somewhere
Even if it’s still here
I can make here ok
Not making a bed
In any fleeting space
But touching magic
Opening blinds
Actions I’ve put off
For all of my time
They say
Everything happens
For a reason
In it’s own time
I have to believe it
Manifest from the bigger picture
Not just mine
Cuz I didn’t say anything
And all she did still saved me tonight
Right on time
Until I can save myself
I’ll keep trying