FoundAlongRoad

Is it a symptom to
Put yourself in other’s shoes
Is it a warning
In finding the other perspective
The closest I’ve ever came to destruction
I still think she just might be an angel
And the thought will keep me sober
As much as I am able
But if my words don’t matter
Get them off of my subconscious
Into a quiet corner
Collecting dust
And stay there they must

There’s a woman that when we were just girls
Fuzzy memories but I think I hurt her (heart)
Lifetimes ago
And she comes across my page and I think
Maybe when I move someday ..
It could be nice but then again
I don’t want anything
Normal, regular, life meshing..
What if I just stayed here, forever
Not in this room but in this in-between
In this radiant thing
I’ll never hold but still holds me
I think now I’d look for her in everyone
You can call that a symptom..
I’ll only let it be a standard

A year ago I felt invincible
Until I broke
And I’ve already known
You just gotta know someone more
Until you find what doesn’t work
The things I love about the last her will always be in me
But she taught me the hard way
To find my worth
I think it depends what it’s exchanged into
Which currency
I know where I could grow and what isn’t right for me
But still I go
Toward the light
I’m the moth pinging off
But am I blinded by it
Or trying to reach somewhere higher

And what if I started from a place
Of a gift
Of not really wanting..
Like knowing I could never be enough
And not forcing
Just basking
Following the flowing without knowing
Where it will end up
Just where it won’t
I’ll follow the river until my feet touch the shallow
Eyes closed
Peaceful
Cuz the light is behind them
And every bend is new again
What if I just rode
Half submerged
Between two worlds
Until my ride ends
Cuz what if I went in knowing
Just knowing
No searching for what doesn’t fit
Cuz what if she..
Only gets better underneath
Every layer
And I do not seek
To dam the river
Nothings finite in love or water
Only changing forms
And I am the visitor
So what if I stuck my whole life
On do not disturb
And followed the current