FoundAlongRoad

There’s always been
Something better around the bend
I think I hit the top but then
Another higher summit
But the air has been getting thin
Climbing mountains for the view
The experience
Can’t say this one is it
But surrounded by clouds it feels like
Touching heaven
Just a glimpse
A foray into serenity
What could ever possibly beat
The way I can only cry for a moment
Cuz she keeps me laughing every day
How she tells me so many little things
I can’t get enough of the way
She just exists
Makes the hike feel like I’m young again
The every day trudging is fun even when
Everything is burning
Cuz through the pain
Comes lore like a breeze
Wit like the sun through the leaves
And the days ending at the peak
Higher than the tallest trees

All my goddesses have been human
Showed me all of their demons
And I tried, I tried to drink
From the poison chalice offered me
Cuz it tasted so sweet
Until it entered my bloodstream

And I’ve been a million awakenings
For just a night
Or a whole new life
With a different wife
That wasn’t me
I’m not sure what I want this time
Like everything was practice
For letting go of this
Finding peace in it
In me
I don’t wanna be wrong
I never was
But I don’t wanna be just another doorway
To another love
Or to turn out the light beyond and decide what you have is enough
But I’ve never known anyone who was really happy
I hope you’re just actually happy
And that’s enough
Turn out the light
I’ll sit in the dark
It’s what I like
Where the shadows tell me stories
Of how when you have things you can’t hold em
It’s better to yearn
Than see it burn
The angels all fell down to earth
But I guess some must be celestially haunted
By the memories of wings
Becoming this rare thing
Above the fray
And I tell myself it’s better this way
Don’t we get the better deal
Freedom and unconditional love
Cuz there’s nothing manmade binding us
And it’s the truth even objective
Just gotta realign the perspective
Cuz I step down from your door
And the tears just fall
I’m not sure what I’m crying for
Maybe the mythical
Maybe the death of dreams
The same unwilling unyielding
Participation
In seeking someone
Who will be like a never ending favorite book
New words for a lifetime of pages
And revisiting like curling up in safety
I don’t think she could ever bore me
Top 5 highest praise
Cuz they all do in their own way
And I’m no better
Which is why I know I could never
Be any better than the happy she has
So why would I cry about that..
If it wasn’t typing each night I’d miss it
But I’m still dying to be the one lying
Up against, just intimate
And if it was every day would it hit mundane
All my broken shards come to the light of day
But I’m still craving seeing every shade
Of light change as the hours do
Drifting across you
In every mood
Curled up like safety
But the hills they used to break me
And now daylight seems
Like hymns amongst the apocalypse
Like sometimes I’m lucky just to live
And be amongst the clouds
Like how it’s just vapor but underneath
It took the perfect atmosphere to get here
And make it all feel surreal
Light coming through like divinity
I wish I was a mirror so you could see
Tell me
Do you get to feel it too
I hope you have a heaven for you