FoundAlongRoad

And I’m lucky
I know I’m lucky
Sometimes I don’t know how I got here
Double check that I’m trying
To be a good person
On the eve of it all
Falling into a black hole
There’s still love in this crazy world
And this way is healthier
Maybe it’s everything
Maybe I was never made for the rest
Yearn until I burn enough to write the words and then put the pen down and rest
Return to knowing there’s infinity in this
And it’s ok if I’m not all alright
Cuz nothing is too much and it’s only not enough if I don’t look at it right
Growing pains and that flammable place inside
The little scared part that says
Is this real life
It wasn’t too late
And now it will never be
I’ve been the three bears and now maybe this is perfect for me
And I know the nights bring longing
And the days reel it back to knowing what I lack
So I’m forever in between
But right in the middle just holds me
Right in the learning to feel safe
To be my own and still be open without throwing it all away
Throwing it all at the wall
Instead only slowing
Like speed running what it would’ve been like
If I had lived another life
Except now this one is mine
And my only journey is to not let existence itself pry
It from me
Cuz it’s everything
Isn’t it lovely
And I’ll write from the depths of insanity
And these wounds in me
Only to soothe the undercurrent
And when my fingers still im learning
To leave it there
Tentative air
Crack the windows of the hurting
The unknowing, uncertain
The contradictive answers I was always trying
To make fit somehow
But we’re in our Goldilocks era now